2019 was a blurr.
We started off with a bang! News that we will be moving to another country. Excitement overtook us and we lost track of time.
I had so many goals set for 2019. I wanted to finish writing my book, blog every day, vlog regularly, etc. I reached none of those goals…
Now in 2020 the excitement of the move is still there, we can’t wait to go and be a blessing to whomever we get in contact with.
During may of 2019 I graduated, the hubster was visiting in the States and ever since then it just seems as if my life started snowballing and there just doesn’t seem to be an end in sight. There were endless bundles of laundry, dishes, school things, church things, and the list goes on and on.
But it all seems to be a blurr. I started noticing a bit of a low feeling in my emotions during this season too. I usually feel low over Christmas time and there are various reasons for it, but this year was just extra hard for me. As much as I tried, we couldn’t get all the family together. (They had other plans, as they should, because adulting…) So as much as I tried to create the happiness and excitement around Christmas, it just wasn’t there. I cried privately the whole Christmas long.
Thankfully a close friend of mine picked up on it and she arranged that Santa Clause would visit our house. The kids were over joyed!
But still there was this something missing feeling. I don’t know if that’s just what happens when you grow up, or is there something deeper. It’s 2020 and as much as I am excited about the Bible Study that we are doing over on Ashes to Beauty I am also kind of careful about getting up and grabbing the bull by the horns this year.
I really am praying about this and know that God will reveal to me the root of these emotions.
I am extra tired too… The whole of December I worked from 7am to 7pm 90% of the time. The salon was busy and it was all exciting, but after work each night I had to also do the laundry, feed and care for my family, clean our home, etc. Many don’t know the behind the scenes of my life, just as I don’t know the behind the scenes of their lives, yet I felt judged and pushed during this season. I might just be in need of some proper rest & TLC.
I know that I know that God is still God when we find ourselves in the valley. I know that He is a good God who will never leave me, nor forsake me. He will not leave me helpless and He has always carried me, this will be no exception. I declare that this low season of my life will be a Testimony to others of hope and encouragement that it is possible to go through a tough time and still get out alive.
Thank you for always reading my blogs. I believe that this year will be a year of great blessing, clear vision and a solid open door to bring hope and encouragement to others who need it.