It’s been one of those weeks.
What started out as a sore throat ended in bronchitis.
I am not the type of person who runs to the Dr for nothing. When I have a cold I take some Panado and Medlemon and get over it. Monday morning I woke up with a burning palate, nose & throat. On Tuesday I had full on flu! Body ache, headache, inflamed throat, running nose and feeling sick all over. So I did a Dr’s visit and was sent home with meds and an order to get bedrest.
Now… I am a mom of two. I work full time, help with homework, school lunches, extra curricular activities, keep the household running and clean, take care of each one’s individual needs, make sure they get at least one vegetable in for the week, tend to the hubsters needs and at least take care of my appearance for him too, then I also have other responsibilities on my Facebook group Ashes to Beauty where I do regular inspirational videos and a LIVE chat every Friday where I lead a Bible Study, I also have church responsibilities and a cell group on a Wednesday.
On Wednesday I wasn’t able to stay in bed & rest. You know… work, school, and the children started with their extra English classes too now so that they will be able to understand, speak, read and write the language once we get to our new home.
On Thursday morning I woke up almost dead sick. My flu went downhill. I went to work, but they sent me straight to the Dr. I could hardly breathe, my body was aching, coughing etc.
Long story short. I am in hospital… I think my immune system just gave in with all the balls I have to juggle and I don’t know how I am going to change my schedule in such a way that I will have down time. I love my family, I love my job, I love what I do on our Ashes to Beauty group, I love my church responsibilities. I enjoy everything I do… How am I going to schedule my things in such a way that my health does not suffer. I am trusting God to inspire me creatively in rescheduling my priorities.
I am convinced that I am a little burned out too.
I struggle to ask for help, because most of the times in the past I have asked for help it wasn’t available. Lying in this bed thinking about these things I don’t know what to do. I know it’s only for another couple of months. Only until we get to our new home. Our schedule will change drastically once we are over there and I will have more time on my hands than I do have now…
All I know and all I believe right now is that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13.
The Amplified Bible puts it as follows:
All things which He has called me to do… I am called to be a wife, mother, pioneer, barrier breaker, leader. But my highest calling is to be a child of God. A daughter of the King. And even though my body may be tired and sick my spirit is quickened and filled with joy. I am excited to fulfill the plan and purpose God has placed upon my life.
Yes in this season of life I am pressured and as Paul wrote in 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
Pressure is needed to form our character. You can’t have wine if the grapes aren’t crushed. You can’t have diamonds if the elements aren’t pressured. You can’t have a rainbow without a little rain.
I may be resting now, but when I get up from this I will be like Deborah, a force of faith and courage to be reckoned with.
This current season of business and a lot of pressure is simply a learning school to train me to cope with the pressure of what might be coming. If I can learn to schedule creatively to carry pressure now, I will be able to use it for future pressure.
I also need to learn to say no…